Four Years Ago.....

Four years ago, today, my world crumbled.....four years ago today, my world was turned upside down....four years ago today life would never be the same for me....four years ago today David took his own life.....

I'm not going to re-write his eulogy or his own personal history....David had a monkey on his back that he could not shake.  And no matter how much I loved him, cared for him, begged and pleaded with him, he was the only one who had the ability to throw that monkey off...

Those of you who knew him will agree with me that he was kindest most loving man in the world; extremely intelligent...would give you the shirt off his back.  He was a great problem solver for other people; he had great ideas.....but the one person he couldn't or wouldn't help was himself.....

All he wanted in life was to be loved and accepted by his father, mother and siblings....they turned their backs on him and he got to the point where that pain was too great to live with.  They have that guilt to carry as their burdens for the remainder of their lives.

But I'm not going to dwell on that here....I am going to remember him with great affection; I will laugh at some of the things we did together, the trips we took, the times we went dancing....how he loved to hear me sing....

I have become a stronger person because of my experiences with him....I no longer try to control others, I let each person I know live their own life....and because I knew David I consider myself truly blessed....

Lovingly,

Pammy